In Memory of Anthony "Dylan" Cook

I was born on May 30, 2005, at 10:01pm. I was born to Brenda and Danny Cook.

My name is Brenda Cook, and I live in Alabama. I was 16 years old when I had my first child.

I was still in High School and trying to further my education while being pregnant and having a husband who was in the army and trying to further his career. I was 6 months pregnant and going in and out of labor back and forth to the hospital and them stopping my labor every time. On April 28, 1995, my heart shattered into a million pieces. I had went to school that day, but all day was hurting, and I felt so different, like something was wrong. I called my Mom from school and she came and picked me up and took me to the Hospital. While at the hospital my life crashed around me. They escorted me up to the Labor and delivery floor to once again stop my labor. While in the Labor Triage they brought in numerous doctors because they could not find my sons heart beat. After about 45 minutes of not being able to determine if the heart beat they were hearing was mine or my babies they decided to do an ultrasound, I knew when they moved it across his heart that my son was gone. I had to carry my son for 3 weeks following finding out he was going to be Stillborn. My father being a minister we went from revival to revival hoping and praying that God would hear our prayers. God answered my prayer in 1997 when he blessed me with a wonderful baby girl. I owe everything to my Lord and Savior! For without him I am nothing!

Thanks to everyone who has said a prayer for me along my journey with God.

Please keep us in your prayers as we travel this road in our ministry for God!

PRAISE BE TO GOD!

In 2001 I recorded a song by a wonderful lady who lives in Texas. This song really discribes the way I feel, thank you Christine for a wonderful song that is truly a blessing to me!

Verse:
THERE IS LOVE IN MY SORROW
THERE IS LOVE IN MY TEARS
GIVE ME THE COURAGE AND STRENGTH
THROUGH THE COMING YEARS
TO HOLD ON TO YESTERDAY'S MEMORIES
SO ALL MAY KNOW
THE LOVE IN MY HEART
AND THE LOVE FROM MY SOUL.

Chorus:
SOMETIMES I WANT TO CRY
BUT IF I SHED A TEAR
FOR THAT PRECIOUS CHILD
NO LONGER NEAR
JUST KNOW THAT I NEED A LITTLE TIME
TO BLINK BACK THE TEARS
AND I'LL BE FINE.

Verse:
OH, I WANT THE RAINBOWS
BUT I DON'T WANT THE STORMS,
I WANT THE ROSES,
BUT I DON'T WANT THE THORNS.
SOMETIMES I WANT TO BE WEAK
AND LEAN ON YOU
TO FIND COMFORT IN ALL
THAT I SAY AND DO.

Repeat Chorus

Verse:
WHEN I GET TO HEAVEN
AND I SEE MY LITTLE ONE
STANDING BESIDE JESUS
GOD'S ONLY SON
I WILL HAVE NO NEED FOR TEARS
OR MEMORIES
FOR WE WILL BE TOGETHER
FOR ETERNITY.

JUST TO THINK OF THAT SWEET DAY
SOMETIMES I WANT TO CRY.

By: Christine Scott
1990

They both love and miss me so much! I have a little sister, her name is Chasidee. Chasidee loves and misses me so much. I have never met my sister but I am sure I will meet her one day. Until I do I will be the guardian angel that watches over her and my mommy.